life is musical

What was your random act of kindness today?
Submitted by Cher Cabula.

Making my baby sister hot chocolate.

What do you do when you get a crush on someone?
Submitted by Desi.

Act like the world's biggest idiot.
Which is why I avoid crushes now.

What are your top five break-up songs?
Submitted by gt.

1) Through With You - Maroon 5
2) How to Save a Life - The Fray
3) Call Me When You're Sober - Evanescence
4) Your Ex-Lover is Dead - Stars
5) Someday You Will Be Loved - Death Cab for Cutie

So. That's the end of the semester. Two A's, one B, and a C...and a W, and a few classes still not reporting.

So, I'm home. Finally. This semester nearly killed me. Lots of stress.

But hey, Amanda's coming in two days.

What was your first car?

1986 Pontiac 6000. Light blue with a dark blue interior.
Still driving it. <3

So last night was my one concert of the semester (woo for being an ensemble slacker!). My group played three songs, Autumn Leaves (epic FAIL of the night because Thomas screwed up the form and we had a hard time recovering, played saxophone on it), All of Me (which I sang), and The Girl from Impanea (which I played flute on, and we started with Iron Man then shifted into the original song we were going to do, and became this concert's jokesters in the process). 

So, All of Me. Yeah, I sang. Until last night, I had never sang jazz in front of an audience before. And also, it was the first time since I was fourteen where I sang in front of an audience that my dad was a part of. Yeah, with the exception of the people in my group, I think maybe three or four people knew I was going to sing tonight, and Dad was not one of them. At least until Thomas became our group's "spokesman" and blabbed it to everyone.

The mic I had to use absolutely blew. I couldn't hear myself at all, so I just had to belt it out. My throat went completely dry right before I started singing, so I cracked a few times and prolly sounded terrible. Oh to the wellz.

So yeah, after my ensemble was done, I saw Johnny first (who's the guy that's trying to rebound with me). He was standing behind one of the curtains. I didn't recognize him at first, 'cause he pulled a Megan and was almost completely bald (which, this boy had hair down to his shoulders). He was wearing sunglasses on the dark side of the stage. Oookay. And the first thing he said was "Very nice, Miss (insert last name here)."

Honest to God, I thought Johnny was an Agent from the Matrix for about two seconds. I said thank you and quickly hurried off stage to find Dad.

So while I'm putting up my saxophone, Dad walks up to me and says, "You know, if you were a guy, I'd tell you you'd have big khahunas." I burst into laughter. "I didn't know you were going to sing tonight."
"That's 'cause I've been hiding that fact for three weeks."
"How many people knew you were going to sing?"
I saw Johnny in the hallway, "That guy."
"That was a...." He looked around, looking for words.
"Ballsy move?"
"Yeah, that's it."

I was also the only person to play/sing three different things. Pamela sang and played trumpet, and Joe played trumpet and keys. And Clay played alto and soprano sax (which isn't much difference at all). So I got the diversity award for the night.

And yeah, glad that's over. Now to focus on my last week of classes. WOO!

Failure is inevitable... Show us some failure.
Submitted by Connie.

Me.
Epically FAILING my scale juries....
AGAIN.

God has got to have a sense of humor. That's the only explanation for what's going on in my love life right now.

• One of my closest guys friends on campus just broke up with his girlfriend, and is trying to rebound. I happen to be the object of the rebound.
• One of my guy friends from the BCM asks me every time he sees me what is my current relationship status, i.e. "Please let me be your boyfriend."
• One guy who I met while I was on the mission trip to Jamaica, who developed a huge crush on me while we were there, decided he'd follow Craig, Megan, and me to McAllister's...and try to get me to be his "fill-in girlfriend" after Craig and Megan started holding hands. That did not go well for him.
  

I'm not attracted to any of these boys.
And I find myself wanting to go back to Jer, which makes no sense, because as much as I would like to go back and pretend nothing happened, yeah, that's not how it works.
And the more the wrong guys start chasing me, the more I long for the one God has picked for me. Yah, go me.

What's holding you back from your dream job?
Submitted by Question of the Day.

Still in college. 

He still looks at me that way.

The smile in his eyes that just seems to scream, "I adore you."

My heart will not ever be his again.